I woke up today with a bit of anxiety … grouchiness of some sort. It was not a restful night’s sleep.
There are many temporal matters my mind is stewing about:
– which 8+ passenger vehicle to get
– Feeling anxious to move to a new home & start organization afresh with more storage
– Jobs for Jimmy? Where does God want us? We felt so good about Maryland. Sigh…
– Flu Season? Enterovirus? I don’t have energy for anyone to get sick, especially the worry with a newborn this season.
– Last days stuff… I read too much in the news. Wars, Ebola Outbreak, boogie men, etc. KEEP MY FAMILY SAFE!
– Parenting each unique child with their strengths & weaknesses. Balancing all 6 kiddos temperaments.
– Money. Bleh. Winter Clothing for kids. Vehicles. Medical bills from baby. Braces. The BUDGET! Always $.
– Pride. I’m having vanity issues with vehicles. And wishing I felt cute in my clothes. Sigh…
But then I tell myself that FAITH is stronger than fear.
The thought: “GOD WILL PROVIDE” keeps coming to my mind.
These temporal matters will work themselves out in time.
All I need know is that if we do our part to listen to the Spirit,
we will be guided to make righteous choices for our family.
1 Nephi 17: 1-3
1 And it came to pass that we did again take our journey in the wilderness; … And we did travel and wade through much affliction in the wilderness; and our women did bear children in the wilderness.
2 And so great were the blessings of the Lord upon us, that while we did live upon raw meat in the wilderness, our women did give plenty of suck for their children, and were strong, yea, even like unto the men; and they began to bear their journeyings without murmurings.
3 And thus we see that the commandments of God must be fulfilled. And if it so be that the children of men keep the commandments of God he doth nourish them, and strengthen them, and provide means whereby they can accomplish the thing which he has commanded them; wherefore, HE DID PROVIDE means for us while we did sojourn in the wilderness.
During the 3 a.m. feeding for Scotland, I read part of Sheri Dew’s BYU Women’s Conference Message on Grace. It’s a powerful talk.
This message teaches me that Grace/The Savior’s Atonement
is for the every-day stuff (not just for the deepest and darkest moments in life.
The temporal matters I stew over,
the eternal matters of raising children.
The emotions I’m trying to control.
The tiredness I feel from giving to so many littles.
The priorities I’m sorting through in all moments of the day.
The Atonement of Jesus Christ is there to provide peace in all these matters.