come hither forlorn little flower; warm yourself by the fire

can you tell that i’m a tad bit tired? i don’t think that title makes a bit of sense… but i like it anyways. i came across this funny photo from nov 2009 when I was searching the computer for pictures to print for our Proclamation Photo Wall (so excited about this, by the way!). Don’t these look like such sad, cold little sunflowers. they need a bit of warmth.

ahhh-ohhhh-sigh… lookie – here is some sun… blue skies… green… warmth… and one of the fabulous reasons we moved to Utah… mountains.

there is something good in every day… no matter the weather.

wow – that was random. but it’s about all i’ve got tonight. heading to bed early.

hurricane force winds


some winds are from our choices.
some winds are from other’s choices.
some winds are just part of life… trials. life lessons.
some winds seem to blow from every side… all at the same time.
some winds we wish we never had to endure…
but i know those winds make us stronger if we rely on the Lord.
faith… trust… and endurance.

I love this scripture. I love that my kids love to sing this scripture song (especially Abe).

This is where my thoughts are today.

Zion or Bust!

p.s. thanks steph!

that which is praiseworthy

This weekend we watched “Courageous”.

Since I was such a downer about Downton Abbey (Jenifer made an insightful comment that is worth reading, by the way), I thought I’d share a positive story about something produced in media recently.

I really enjoyed this movie. We have watched several of the Christian movies & they make me chuckle because they are a bit cheesy… but the message is positive & they always teach family values. During this one I cried (family members dying always makes me cry – always.) And Jimmy and I laughed (“What is your full name” scene. “Do you have kidney problems?”). It was goober funny.

The main message of this movie is about being a valiant and strong father and example. The dads/police officers in the movie all signed this resolution:

THE RESOLUTION
I DO solemnly resolve before God to take full responsibility for myself, my wife and my children.

I WILL love them, protect them, serve them and teach them the Word of God as the spiritual leader of my home.

I WILL be faithful to my wife, to love and honor her and be willing to lay down my life for her as Jesus Christ did for me.

I WILL bless my children and teach them to love God with all of their hearts, all of their minds and all of their strength.

I WILL train them to honor authority and live responsibly.

I WILL confront evil, pursue justice and love mercy.

I WILL pray for others and treat them with kindness, respect and compassion.

I WILL work diligently to provide for the needs of my family.

I WILL forgive those who have wronged me and reconcile with those I have wronged.

I WILL learn from my mistakes, repent of my sins and walk with integrity as a man answerable to God.

I WILL seek to honor God, be faithful to His church, obey His Word and do His will.

I WILL courageously work with the strength God provides to fulfill this resolution for the rest of my life and for His glory.

“As for me and my house, we will serve the Lord.” Joshua 24:15

Anyhoo… I’m glad we watched it. I want to be a better & stronger parent because of it.  It was an uplifting feel-good movie.

Strengthen Thine Heart

Every Sunday Sherrie Johnson shares a scripture on her blog. This was the one she shared today. I love the message of it. So many of us need that strength of heart… our duty: to wait on the Lord.

Lift and Bless One Another


My visiting teacher shared this part of the message with me this past week. I really appreciated the spirit of this quote. It was a good reminder to me that little acts of service can go a long way.

two thoughts for a sunday evening


that which is BEST for us

my original thoughts were titled … “that which is good for us”… but going along with the theme of GOOD-BETTER-BEST… I quickly reconsidered.

where am i going with this?

I’ve been thinking about why doing what is BEST for ourselves is sometimes such a challenge?

For example…

Exercise.
Seriously – whenever I get on that treadmill, I feel like I could conquer the world (well… for at least 5 minutes)
Then why is it so hard for me to find a consistent time to make that happen.
Yes, I have 5 kids… and a busy life… but if something is so good for me, why is it so hard for me to do it?
Oh – mortal man… rise up.

Food.
This one really goes right along with exercise. When I eat well… i feel like I could bounce around with energy (not much bouncing going on these days, unless you count the muffin top). When i eat chocolate chip cookies all day (ahem…), I feel sloggy. yes… sloggy is a word. or maybe not. but it’s a perfect description.
Oh – mortal man… rise up.

Housework.
I’ve decided that it’s not that more experienced(older) women LOVE to do housework… but I think they have realized that when you do a job well, there is deep satisfaction and fulfillment. They are wise. They know the value of “Work first… play later.” They know that putting work off doesn’t help at all… in fact it makes things worse because you kick yourself about it… and you still have to do the work (which in my case is usually doubled because laundry and piles and dishes have stacked). These wise women know well the truth in this delightful Mary Engelbreit quote:
Then why is this so hard for me.
Oh – mortal man… rise up.

A place for everything & everything in its place.
The best ever… but hard to make happen.

Service.
I know it makes my heart soar when done in the right Spirit. But sometimes I get a wee bit burned out. This week – burned out from the constancy of Truman. Needing some strength in my calling. Which makes me realize I need to seek rejuvenation in a good sort of way…. what that is… I haven’t figured out this week.
Oh – mortal man… rise up.

Scripture Study.
Love that ‘Moroni Trumpet in your heart’ feeling when I read a verse that connects with my spirit. Dah-dah-dah-duhhhhhhhh. (did that sound like a trumpet sounding?) Then why doesn’t scripture study always happen every day. Would lighten my soul if I’d take the time.
Oh – mortal man… rise up.

Lots of good things to do. Always something to do. Just need to make priorities happen. Good. Better. Best.

I do think a bit of warm sunshine might help lighten the winter spirits ’round here. It would light a little fire in my soul.

Off to organize my room and clean off the treadmill. The angels know it’s covered in an inch of dust.

edited to note: thoroughly scrubbed the treadmill. no more dust. yay. decided to make good use of it. plugged in a show on netflix on the I-Pod and walked for 30 minutes: 1.75 miles. It’s a start. wahoo…

in the SALVATION business

can’t wait to get the pdf of this message. oh, there is so much more that WE can BE… as a sisterhood… as mothers… as a Relief Society. Onward and Upward.

a bit of American History

Last night I had a dream about Brady Howell. It wasn’t until I woke that I remembered that he was no longer on this earth. He was a victim of 9/11. He worked at the Pentagon. He was, in my dream, exactly the kind of person I remember him being… good, kind, & fun.

This morning when I remembered that I dreamt about Brady, I told the kids about it. I told them about the events of 9/11… the terrorists, the airplanes, the towers,the people who died being so courageous. I don’t think Hannah ever remembered hearing about it. She was a little shocked and saddened. 9/11/2001 happened a year before she was born.

To my children, 9/11 will be a part of American History, but to me it is very REAL because I remember the news… the emotions, the questions – wondering if life in America would be safe… or if this was a new type of war on American soil. This is how I feel about Desert Storm. It was my birthday & watching the news about this new war was very solemn…. we didn’t know how far-reaching or how life-changing it could be.

I guess when you live through something, you have a new perspective… this realization could help me try to better understand my grandparents who lived through the depression… those feelings & experiences were real to them. Those who lived through Vietnam… World War II, Pearl Harbor bombing … not just history … real moments & feelings.

inner stillness & whisperings of the Spirit

One of the things I’ve realized lately is how important it is to have the Holy Ghost with me as much as possible. Especially as a mother and in my calling as R.S. President, I’ve recognized that I NEED the Spirit to guide me for I just can’t know everything on my own (yes, my callings in life humble me). In the first part of January I knew I needed to make mucho changes to visiting teaching routes. Wow – what a job! It takes so many hours… and thought… and guidance. The prayer in my heart that came to mind all that week was this:
This song took on new meaning to me. It was no longer about me teaching my kids… it was about the Lord guiding me… His child. The “I know I don’t know it all, so please guide my thoughts, my actions, my decisions for my family and for the sisters in my ward” prayer.

I’ve tried to listen to these whisperings. It’s hard, because there is rarely silence in my life. I’ve tried to be aware of feelings. If I keep feeling weird about a decision or something going on in r.s., I finally realize maybe it is the Spirit teaching me that I need to take action and change something.

I remember the book Forest Born that I read a few years ago. I loved the message. It is a book about the journey Rinna takes to learn to create a stillness and peace inside herself despite all the chaos around her.

Anyhoo… just some Sunday night ramblings about what goes on inside of me. Thoughts from the past few weeks. I’m so grateful for the Holy Ghost to guide us. So grateful for a loving Heavenly Father who doesn’t leave us alone on our journey back to Him. I certainly need those quiet whisperings.