I will be your light…

I’ve been doing some soul searching … trying to get my mental & physical to agree with and do all the things my Spirit knows are BEST. Life is certainly busy and I feel a new fresh start for 2013 coming. A wipe-the-slate-clean and start over with the basics kinda thing. You know the times when you have a killer day and then you read the scriptures and BAM! best verse ever. This was the first one I read last night after a mournful cry session to Jimmy.Life is always better when you read the scriptures. Every . Single . Time … I receive LIGHT.  Sometimes I just feel confused and lost… and I know it’s because I’m trying to forge my own way instead of going the Lord’s way.  My way is fine and maybe even good… but the Lord’s is better.  So this verse about letting the Lord guide you … preparing the way is perfect.  BUT – the kicker… I must keep His commandments the BEST way I know how.  Why is it so hard to DO what you KNOW is BEST … not just good … BEST?!  And if we DO what we know/feel is right (between us and the Lord), we will be led towards the promised land.  Great blessings promised here.   He will send LIGHT … He will lead us… we keep His commandments … and we are blessed.  It doesn’t seem too complicated on paper.  And then … We will KNOW that God has led us on this path.  Gratitude for his guidance will be felt.

Yes, life is always better when we read the scriptures. Now – for more soul searching …

my thoughts at 6:36 a.m.

i keep telling myself this.
over and over.

i also keep reminding myself to DO this.
i have a bazillion projects i want to do… all good… but i don’t have the time, energy, or uhhh … time.

I have a lot of housework to do today.
a house of order is a house of God.

and because color is always a good thing.
“Be a joyful mother of children.” Ps. 113:9

My Life is like Ground Hog Day

I haven’t blogged in a week – that is like forever around here. Too much to say … not enough energy or brain power to get it all typed out in coherent thoughts. We’ll go for bullet points to sum things up.

– Potty training tru… 99% trained on #1. 0% trained on #2. That kid can hold it forever. Dry over night after day 1. We’ve cleaned #2 out of so many underpants that I’m about to pop (whatever that means). I just can’t buy pull-ups when he’s so close with most of it. It’s been interesting. Way easier than I thought. But harder with the blast-o-poops. Way too much information.

– Don’t spill the beans… i made a great new preschoolish activity with beans. It was 100% fantastic until tonight when Max stuck 3 beans in his nose. Really?! My kids have never done that. I think we had one incident a few years ago but i guess we easily took care of it. Amy, my sis, was here so using her calm pediatric e.r. nursing skills, she got 2 of those beans out. The 3rd was nowhere to be seen. P.A. Lindsey at the evening clinic couldn’t see it either. Hopefully it slid right down his throat. No Beans in noses!

– Liza is quite the busy tot. She’s turned into a demanding little girly-twirl. Yesterday she was having a jolly ol’ time in the bathroom scooping cupfuls of toilet water onto herself, the floor, and Hannah’s new book. With tears in her eyes, Hannah buried her book in Saran Wrap in the garbage.

– Abe … we got him a fish. A Gal in our ward was giving away a betta fish in a vase with a lovely plant growing out of it. If he cares for his pet and the plant, he can pass off 3 cubscout requirements. Hopefully we can keep it alive for at least two weeks. We’ve never had a pet before.

– Jimmy – the other night he said, “What have we got ourselves into?” I still feel like a little girl who shouldn’t be left in charge. But now this little girl has lots of wrinkles and love handles. And the word going around is that my nephews think I’m strict. I told Amy that I’m taking that as a compliment…. seeing as I’ve spent most of my life being so quiet.

– I made soap today… Not cold-pressed… just melted bar soap with glycerin and distilled water to make soft soap. I can add on-guard for hand sanitizing goodness. We’ll see tomorrow how it turned out.

– So we watched ground-hog day last night. Mostly goob, right? But I liked the lesson I gleaned: if you don’t like where you’re at … improve yourself by serving others … learn new talents to bless others … learn to be unselfish by caring about others … and once you think of others, you’ll feel happy. Doing whatever you want, whenever you want, won’t get you out of the rut. But changing your attitude and your actions will help you embrace and love the life you have.

– I really can’t place this quote… but I remember Julie Beck saying something about how we need to spend less time trying to figure out a way to get a break/vacation from our life and spend more efforts to embrace it. I just plain can’t find it… but I found these instead which meet my purpose of inspiring messages to help strengthen my feeble knees.

Julie B. Beck (2011 Women’s Conference): ““Am I aligned with the Lord’s vision of me and what He needs me to become, and the roles and responsibilities He gave me in heaven that are not negotiable? Am I aligned with that, or am I trying to escape my duties?”


I’m just having a hard time giving up some of the nice-to-do’s. sigh…

Let’s see – anything else.

It snowed. Tru and Max love to go outside. Liza thinks she needs a hat and boots on too. If anyone gets a drink, she needs one. If anyone has hot chocolate, she needs one. Candy – she needs some. That girly. We’re already feeling a little stir-crazy with the colder temps. We’ve spent oodles of time playing games, doing activities, making things in the kitchen. Sigh… But there is still so much time left in the day with 3 little ones at home.

Heading to bed… and just think “Tomorrow we get to do this all over again” Embrace my life, I will!

p.s. someday i’ll post pictures of all this jazz.

Armed with Righteousness

My friend Katie shared this quote by Barbara Bush on facebook today. I LOVE it!Yes, what happens in our country affects us each and every day … but in the end, TRUTH WILL PREVAIL … our success as a family depends on our personal righteousness. Oh how I want us to BE STRONG.

These are the latter days. Heavenly Father knew things would get tough so he gave us tools to be faithful. This year our family has been focusing on Temples – and building a little temple fund to donate to the Church. I hope my children realize that the Temple strengthens us with might … to do right … no matter what is going on around us.

It will take strong people to battle those in the tall and spacious building. I’m excited for our 2013 Family Theme: Armed with Righteousness.
This is a perfect time to teach our kids about being courageous for all that is virtuous and true. I feel an urgency to focus on this even more than we have. These are desperate times. Satan is a booger and is fighting hard. But we can fight harder because GOOD is stronger…. it’s eternal.

Teaching spiritual preparedness, temporal preparedness, hard work, sacrifice, faith in Jesus Christ, optimism (i know – you’re doubting my optimism after that last Presidential Election post of mine). But there is more we can do to teach our little barnlings to be STRONG in righteousness.

I love this challenge for myself as a mother.

disappointed

well… boo.
the donkey party democrats won.
stink.
i feel like all of the crap ‘change’ from the last 4 years that is sending america down the tube
will just continue for the next 4.

too bad the socialists will still be around.

and this also means the gooey cheese pizza at school lunch
will still also be around… thank you mrs obama for that.

we love when the government tries to control us,
the people of the United States of America.
NOT!

sigh…

but self … there is always HOPE in Christ. Remember that.

Jimmy’s thoughts: “We just have to keep fighting. Truth and right will ultimately prevail.”

He’s nicer than me tonight.

ok – here we go… I’ll believe in all the goodness left in America.

Thanks be…

for temples.
for the promises and blessings received there.
I LOVE remembering the words from the initiatory.
I went today and it made my day so much happier.
Discouragement slips away when you think of HOPE: real HOPE in Christ.
We are so blessed to be strengthened with might to do right.

LDS Church Temples photo by Rob Versluis

Fabulous Thankful Pottery-Barn-ish Sign by Kerry’s Kronicles

Great thoughts.

Jimmy is changing the clocks… I guess we’ll Fall Back like the rest of society.
I think we ought to just leave time alone and let the sun rise later and set earlier… depending on the season?
It would certainly be easier on the tots (and their parents).

Love yellow!
The end.

The Gratitude Project

Yay – It’s November… the month of gratitude. Why is it that sometimes I only remember to be *SUPER* grateful during this month. It would do my heart good to go the extra mile on being thankful year round. I’ve been contemplating what to do for our family Gratitude Project this month. I’m not quite sure what to do.  We all need to recognize how blessed we are – maybe we’ll whine a bit less.

So – today I was trying really hard to be grateful to be at home with 3 littles. We went on an adventure to collect leaves. That was fun for 10 minutes until the boys came inside and started fighting. We’ve been working on projects this week for preschool learning fun. That was fun for about 2 seconds today. Tru and Liza were not having fun.

Reality is that it takes mucho effort some days to remember how blessed I am. In the midst of all the daily activities, I noticed this Thankful quote on the computer that was still up in Photoshop… it really was a good reminder to CHOOSE TO BE GRATEFUL. I’m not planning on sharing all my Grateful Lists every day, but today I need it for me & the record.

Abe – who came home and asked how my day was and started rubbing my back. Nice. Thoughtful.
Liza who sat and ate popcorn on the couch while I got to talk with my sis.
Autumn Leaves – love the red, orange, & yellow
Trying to be grateful for water. Lemon essential oil helps me want to drink more.
Warmer Autumn Temps. Love that we could go on a walk in November.
Clean sheets.
Light.
Truman saying thanks for his clean blankie.
No potty-training accidents today. Crossing fingers.
Two little boys who held mostly still for haircuts.
Clean bathroom sinks.
Pinterest.
Thoughts of orange rolls for Turkey Day.
Dreams of living on more land… with maybe a larger storage room.
Hope. in Eternal Life.
Ft. Lauderdale Florida Temple. So cool that it is so close to where we lived.
Vinegar – even though it stinks to high heaven… it cleans the fridge water tray.
Conversations with Jimmy when all the tots are in bed.
The Holy Ghost.

Many good things in my life.
Moving forward with my day –
in hopes that I have patience with all my little blessings running all about.

Follow me boys, follow me!

From now on you can just call me Akela.
For my new calling is Wolf Den Mother. ha-ha.
Okay – Den Leader is probably the official title.

Now, I’m thoroughly confused about scouting.
I don’t know why.
But I think I’ve finally figured it out (mostly).
For some reason I failed to have Abe do anything in his book this summer. Fail.
My only redemption is that this fall, I assigned Abe’s monday chore to be “30 minutes of cub scouts”.
Best Chore ever in his mind.
Sometimes he has a friend over to do it with him.
Sometimes he does Faith in God book.
Sometimes it doesn’t happen – but ya know, we try.

So – I believe in the Scouting Program.

Now, I didn’t say I believe that Scouts always works
(because honestly I can see so many situations where I wouldn’t want my son to do it –
ya know – lame leaders who don’t do anything … or dumb boys who ruin it for the gang …
or having a kid who gets easily overwhelmed).

Luckily Abe has had great leaders in the ward who have been VERY organized.
Right now there are only 3 Wolfs who are all great.
And hopefully Abe is surviving even though he does sometimes get frustrated.

But having young men learn new skills and accomplish things is a grand plan for their self-esteem.
Plus, it gives them something to enjoy other than b-ball and video games
(except why in the world is there a video game belt loop?).
I believe busy boys will do better staying out of trouble.
And scouts is a good kind of busy.

Since I’ve gotten this calling, I’ve had this old-fashioned *Awesome* tune in my head. Gotta love “Follow Me Boys” movie with Fred MacMurray. In fact, I think we’ll watch it this week.

It’s that time of year

so wow… the politics have been bonkers lately.
debates… blah-blah-blah…
libya scandal… blah-blah-blah…
elections … already cast my vote.
mail-in absentee ballot is the easiest way to go for a mama with 5 tots at home.
but it somehow seems less patriotic.
is waiting in line forever to vote more patriotic?
ummmm, no. i guess not.

i saw 2 cards at target tonight.
they made me chuckle… so i recreated my favorite.

there, there… this one is a little more impartial
happy elections…
may the best man win.
praying indeed.

p.s. feel free to share the images if you BELIEVE IN AMERICA.

from green to white

our world was transformed from green
to white

ok – so i know we didn’t get the glorious foot of snow that Sugar City did… but we do see white.
It’s so hard to want to open the curtains in the morning when all I see is cold outside.
At least my tree still has fabulous autumn leaves left.

not looking forward to winter.
let’s see though – we ought to find something delightful about it.
uhhh. . . . it’s nice to LOOK at.

does this mean I can put my indoor Christmas lights up now?
that’s a happy thought.